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Wednesday, 15 August 2018

My Gaming History So Far : A Retrospective of old-school and Modern Games Culture

Playing video games becomes that 25% of my daily activity currently after a long hour of work in baking. After building approximately $ 1500 PC gaming rig, my hobby to follow latest trend of gaming for next-gen (or current gen) becomes my personal satisfaction alongside collecting and adding more games on my Steam library. Playing AAA titles and paying for legal right of video game copy was not my thing back in college. I spent most of my study break time playing MOBA on my toaster PC besides bunch of retro games on Emulator.

There are a lot of debate in regard video game console fanboyism. Surely, PC is the true master race comparing current any console nowadays by any mean. No matter how big buzzword those console technology and capability to offer. Nothing beats PC grandiose except some parts that sounds too gimmicky or just brand-loyalty for particular console owners who mostly regarded based on target audience and matter of interest. For example if you are a Nintendo fan boy who is targeted toward young gamers, or likes to play cinematic games from Japan for mature audience, just get Sony Playstation. 

Speaking of Nintendo, its one of my childhood where most of that times, Nintendo Entertainment System (NES) had many various arcad-ish game I used to play in video game center where its popular among kids in my neighborhood because we play them every afternoon by paying little money for half or one hour renting on the spot. I was also familiar with many SNES and Sega console games, in late 90s, video game culture in Indonesia was slight different. Not everyone can afford to have console in middle class family, except I remember that I had NES console which my dad bought with this pirated cartridge that contained 100 games. 

There was a Playsation 1 or X that amazed me when it arrived in our neighborhood video game center. I still remember the first PSX game I saw was Tekken 1 with this 3D graphic where every kids stunned how advanced the sytem showed. I think I am going to talk about this video game center culture next time. Playsation X was game changer, that what I want to say. 

In early 00s I barely seen any computer or PC gaming except there was kind of big Internet cafe or LAN perhaps that served Counter Strike but I never had a gut to use computer because I thought if you are beginner, you will give the PC viruses if you dont know how to handle this "console" which is too costly to rent and too expensive to afford. Stepping ahead, Playstation came along replacing PS X with better computer graphic and more immerse gameplay. Also, there was X-Box which was not too popular in Indonesia. 

There was missing link for me following and having interest in video game for one decade because I spent 2003 to 2010 in boarding school where later in my senior year I was interested and hooked with PC. I started to focus in learning how to "compute" with PC especially Windows operating system like XP and Windows 7. So, I didn't follow any Playstation 3, X-box  or whatever Nintendo console has been released because I was distracted to understand how PC works.

So back in college in early 10s, I couldn't afford to get any consoles because I had no idea how I can get started to be that gamer or game collector. Its also because of those console are too pricey and its games that aren't something average college student can afford to get only one title where its equivalent of one semester college fee. 

The fact I can play simple old PC games or online by pirating these games is my reason not to own console. Even though I have this toaster PC spec, I thought by having only entry PC you can barely playing any console and AAA title but I was so wrong. It required more hardware and need to get killer PC rig to run games properly. So I get stuck with online games where endless grinding is inevitable just like stuck in a loop. 

I used to like narrative video games with solid game play from PS X era where even though technology had not reach its peak at the time, but those games are too fun and memorable for me which I never had the chance owning the console. And then comes a time this three year, I finally have my own work and get decent income to afford a rig instead of console. So I started saving my money to get something what I really wanted. A highest ground of video game level. Owning PC master race. 

By the time I got the chance to have my own console like PS 4, X-Box or any console Nintedo has been released. I prefer to build my own PC because being adult and realizing something "vote with your own wallet"is rational choice. Its not same like my childhood wish list where I just wanted collecting video game cartridge or owning a console where in the past, fun is just what kid looking for. But adult me want more, So... even though I was so late in this one decade from 2010 to 2018, I also start saving to buy AAA titles to enjoy what latest video game technology and development have to offer. 

Fight this.

I have a Steam account, a personal online library that is considered what must have for PC gamers starter pack which i didn't remember when I created the account in the first place and useless for years. So currently my library is expanding continuously, it comes from my impulsive of buying more and catching what I was missing. Those games aren't physical and more like digital library even though I actually want to collect physical game, but seeing console titles are too problematic and not too worth it to have. There is still satisfaction when I can afford to buy 100 titles from early 10 games which I just completed only 10 titles because how expansive and more times to finish those games, its not same thing like old-school I used to expect. 

Friday, 8 June 2018

I am Married Now

Marriage is important thing in life, "even fools want to get married" said my father. And I didnt really want it but realizing I hit mid 20s. Marriage becomes something I have to get in order to keep reality check because as productive member of society. Marriage is essential stuff that need to be done for people who are sane enough to be more responsible having a family. 

So, I just get married with a girl I knew for one year through introduction of my family, we had engaged too and ran this kind of relationship that made us into husband and wife in the end. We live happily ever after. End of story. Nope. 

Life goes on and I enter this new realm of stepping in one of life phase where mature-hood just get started and probably parent-hood what will I become to. Luckily my life state is on stable with decent earning and more stuff that I plan to get someday like having my own house. But family is not only staying on the house all the time. How about my plan "traveling round the world" and other impossible stuff to achieve. Some people said that marriage hinder someone dream to achieve, I guess it could be right because we need to put our attention to the closest one, the physical one. 

And also, marriage is about keeping love intact forever for couple. A concept where a less responsible boy becomes a responsible man, you know what I mean. I should learn how to love, what is love? Baby dont hurt me! No More!

Thursday, 1 March 2018

(Not) So New Year Update

It almost two months since I don't post anything here on my blog.  I usually left a year resolution,  but realizing that I don't really follow along the thing I write. So I skipped that part this year.  There are many things that I want to note here,  some important one regarding about my personal life,  this blog direction (again) and also how I suppose make blogging hobby to be more fun.

To be honest,  my English skill is still mediocre and average because I feel that writing complex sentence with particular and precise grammar is not something I am good at.  So I always being stuck how I have to write properly. Seeing my post years back,  it makes me realized how suck I was in writing with good grammar.  But who cares, it's not like this blog is visited by someone. I want to put random thing here,  something I like to write and share my thought. 

So,  back to the things I want to note.  I am very grateful for my life right now because it's better.  I finally own my own store which is cake store and work as pastry in family business, something that I haven't decided to focus but in the end I follow along because this work can provide better earning and have promising career if I take more seriously,  so I finally decided to run on my own while I type this post waiting for Costumer in my store. 

Bakery was not my career choice because I prefer to work in tech or something related,  but no matter what universe decide,  it's find the way and also changing the life direction can lead into different fate I guess. But I don't want to leave my interest in tech especially in digital music production,  so I keep trying to find perfect time to keep me productive but realizing my time are spent in work and video game.  I need more to be precise how I can focus in many interest I want to put on.

So,  recently YouTube stopped its content creator program for channel who have less than one thousand subscribers and lack of views than they demanded. And my channel is one of them,  my videos aren't updated anymore and also I am not that good for begging subscribers to keep watching and streaming my music. 

After earning a couple of bucks that is impossible to live relying on YouTube Ads, I just let go my channel and decide to hide my most watched videos,  it's language project for college that I don't have interest to continue,  instead I put all music there because I narrow it as my personal music portfolio. So bye bye YouTube for money.

Speaking of money, besides getting decent earning from work.  I decided to start in investing. The word of investing always makes me roll my eye because it always sounds more shady and something that con people use. But hey,  I was wrong and I look into the good side of investing.  So I start to put my money for something that can productive than more spending by buying Steam Library games and adding more junks in my bedroom.

So,  there are things I want to focus,  my work,  my hobby, my productivity.  I guess I can start on my blog first.

Monday, 25 December 2017

Review : Paladins After 500 Hours Grinding

So, I invest my most of time playing this FPS game that approximately spending 500 hours of grinding and also spent much money for cosmetics such skin for 50$ and more. Nothing to regret playing "free to play" beta game with eye candy characters and also interesting mechanic to train my reflex for fast paced shooters where I enjoy the game mostly for casual play. 

And here I am, after spending 500 hours and grinding each characters for leveling each characters to reach 10 level, I think I am kind of done playing online game like this all this year and back to my productive sessions or playing some good-narrative video games and leave some review on Steam, maybe I just play less than three matches and done. 

In each session, i was rage for stupid team-mates who dont know their role and it also gives ego-fest for each players who think playing team based games just go random jihad and blindly attack enemy. 

I was so satisfied with intense and competitive session where everyone take things seriously and ended have "good game" pops up on chat section where even though we are losing, players just get satisfied to get balance and intense battle. Sometimes, i face most dumbos enemy that are too easy to beat and lag is the only factors to decide are you going to win or not instantly. 

I think this is the game where I was so doubt that free to play strategy wont attract players spending their wallet for cosmetics, guess I was so wrong.. the way game is marketed so appealing and most of the cosmetics for each characters dont have that "buyer remorse" to have. I bought the founder pack for unlocking each characters and also VIP membership where I think its because I fully support the developer to make this game is going full potential because its still on development. 

The only thing I expect from this game is single player mode with lore and things to do for specific mission against bots, not only pushing payloads or 5v5 random battle for grinding and unlocking loot boxes to improve characters ability.

Paladins is kind of game where you have to be ready to understand what if FPS is mixed with moba skills where each characters should have be mastered to gain satisfying gameplay, and also it has competitor with high price tag while this game is free but if you like it, you wont mind to buy for full price.

Thursday, 21 September 2017

What I Wanted and What I am Now

Every kids have their own aspirations for something what they want to be when they grow up. I am the one who also want to be something I want to be. When I was in elementary school, my grade for IPA or Science Knowledge was satisfyingly good enough that made me want to be scientist or veterinarian because I like learning creatures and see how I can save animal life.

I changed my aspiration for my last year on elementary school to be an Islamic religion teacher or Ustadz, I was not so sure why I wrote it on the aspiration field in our senior year book, but the situation where I took and attended boarding school after graduation perhaps made me to fill it.

I was so innocence and naive about seeing the world works, in my boarding school where I spent 7 years being focused to study religious texts and being in ascetic way for junior years made me forget what I wanted to be since there were no area to learn on such boarding school. There is nothing to regret though for me deciding to take the path. There are many things that affected my life and way of thinking eventhough its so limited world.

Fast forward to my college days, I took English for Education as my major. I didnt know single idea how I will end up where I realized that this major was for people who want to teach English. I wasnt not interested in teaching instead I was excited to learn English because it opens my curiosity for the world I have never accessed.

And boom, 5 years passed and I graduated. My interest are eexpanding, I took many interests in learning any fields and I dont take the job as teacher because I think I dont have the competency on that field and its not something I dont want to be stuck on that. Its noble profession, but here... what I wanted to be and what I am now.

I took different path and still curious to learn everything I want to learn.