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Friday, 8 June 2018

I am Married Now

Marriage is important thing in life, "even fools want to get married" said my father. And I didnt really want it but realizing I hit mid 20s. Marriage becomes something I have to get in order to keep reality check because as productive member of society. Marriage is essential stuff that need to be done for people who are sane enough to be more responsible having a family. 

So, I just get married with a girl I knew for one year through introduction of my family, we had engaged too and ran this kind of relationship that made us into husband and wife in the end. We live happily ever after. End of story. Nope. 

Life goes on and I enter this new realm of stepping in one of life phase where mature-hood just get started and probably parent-hood what will I become to. Luckily my life state is on stable with decent earning and more stuff that I plan to get someday like having my own house. But family is not only staying on the house all the time. How about my plan "traveling round the world" and other impossible stuff to achieve. Some people said that marriage hinder someone dream to achieve, I guess it could be right because we need to put our attention to the closest one, the physical one. 

And also, marriage is about keeping love intact forever for couple. A concept where a less responsible boy becomes a responsible man, you know what I mean. I should learn how to love, what is love? Baby dont hurt me! No More!

Thursday, 1 March 2018

(Not) So New Year Update

It almost two months since I don't post anything here on my blog.  I usually left a year resolution,  but realizing that I don't really follow along the thing I write. So I skipped that part this year.  There are many things that I want to note here,  some important one regarding about my personal life,  this blog direction (again) and also how I suppose make blogging hobby to be more fun.

To be honest,  my English skill is still mediocre and average because I feel that writing complex sentence with particular and precise grammar is not something I am good at.  So I always being stuck how I have to write properly. Seeing my post years back,  it makes me realized how suck I was in writing with good grammar.  But who cares, it's not like this blog is visited by someone. I want to put random thing here,  something I like to write and share my thought. 

So,  back to the things I want to note.  I am very grateful for my life right now because it's better.  I finally own my own store which is cake store and work as pastry in family business, something that I haven't decided to focus but in the end I follow along because this work can provide better earning and have promising career if I take more seriously,  so I finally decided to run on my own while I type this post waiting for Costumer in my store. 

Bakery was not my career choice because I prefer to work in tech or something related,  but no matter what universe decide,  it's find the way and also changing the life direction can lead into different fate I guess. But I don't want to leave my interest in tech especially in digital music production,  so I keep trying to find perfect time to keep me productive but realizing my time are spent in work and video game.  I need more to be precise how I can focus in many interest I want to put on.

So,  recently YouTube stopped its content creator program for channel who have less than one thousand subscribers and lack of views than they demanded. And my channel is one of them,  my videos aren't updated anymore and also I am not that good for begging subscribers to keep watching and streaming my music. 

After earning a couple of bucks that is impossible to live relying on YouTube Ads, I just let go my channel and decide to hide my most watched videos,  it's language project for college that I don't have interest to continue,  instead I put all music there because I narrow it as my personal music portfolio. So bye bye YouTube for money.

Speaking of money, besides getting decent earning from work.  I decided to start in investing. The word of investing always makes me roll my eye because it always sounds more shady and something that con people use. But hey,  I was wrong and I look into the good side of investing.  So I start to put my money for something that can productive than more spending by buying Steam Library games and adding more junks in my bedroom.

So,  there are things I want to focus,  my work,  my hobby, my productivity.  I guess I can start on my blog first.

Monday, 25 December 2017

Review : Paladins After 500 Hours Grinding

So, I invest my most of time playing this FPS game that approximately spending 500 hours of grinding and also spent much money for cosmetics such skin for 50$ and more. Nothing to regret playing "free to play" beta game with eye candy characters and also interesting mechanic to train my reflex for fast paced shooters where I enjoy the game mostly for casual play. 

And here I am, after spending 500 hours and grinding each characters for leveling each characters to reach 10 level, I think I am kind of done playing online game like this all this year and back to my productive sessions or playing some good-narrative video games and leave some review on Steam, maybe I just play less than three matches and done. 

In each session, i was rage for stupid team-mates who dont know their role and it also gives ego-fest for each players who think playing team based games just go random jihad and blindly attack enemy. 

I was so satisfied with intense and competitive session where everyone take things seriously and ended have "good game" pops up on chat section where even though we are losing, players just get satisfied to get balance and intense battle. Sometimes, i face most dumbos enemy that are too easy to beat and lag is the only factors to decide are you going to win or not instantly. 

I think this is the game where I was so doubt that free to play strategy wont attract players spending their wallet for cosmetics, guess I was so wrong.. the way game is marketed so appealing and most of the cosmetics for each characters dont have that "buyer remorse" to have. I bought the founder pack for unlocking each characters and also VIP membership where I think its because I fully support the developer to make this game is going full potential because its still on development. 

The only thing I expect from this game is single player mode with lore and things to do for specific mission against bots, not only pushing payloads or 5v5 random battle for grinding and unlocking loot boxes to improve characters ability.

Paladins is kind of game where you have to be ready to understand what if FPS is mixed with moba skills where each characters should have be mastered to gain satisfying gameplay, and also it has competitor with high price tag while this game is free but if you like it, you wont mind to buy for full price.

Thursday, 21 September 2017

What I Wanted and What I am Now

Every kids have their own aspirations for something what they want to be when they grow up. I am the one who also want to be something I want to be. When I was in elementary school, my grade for IPA or Science Knowledge was satisfyingly good enough that made me want to be scientist or veterinarian because I like learning creatures and see how I can save animal life.

I changed my aspiration for my last year on elementary school to be an Islamic religion teacher or Ustadz, I was not so sure why I wrote it on the aspiration field in our senior year book, but the situation where I took and attended boarding school after graduation perhaps made me to fill it.

I was so innocence and naive about seeing the world works, in my boarding school where I spent 7 years being focused to study religious texts and being in ascetic way for junior years made me forget what I wanted to be since there were no area to learn on such boarding school. There is nothing to regret though for me deciding to take the path. There are many things that affected my life and way of thinking eventhough its so limited world.

Fast forward to my college days, I took English for Education as my major. I didnt know single idea how I will end up where I realized that this major was for people who want to teach English. I wasnt not interested in teaching instead I was excited to learn English because it opens my curiosity for the world I have never accessed.

And boom, 5 years passed and I graduated. My interest are eexpanding, I took many interests in learning any fields and I dont take the job as teacher because I think I dont have the competency on that field and its not something I dont want to be stuck on that. Its noble profession, but here... what I wanted to be and what I am now.

I took different path and still curious to learn everything I want to learn.

Tuesday, 19 September 2017

Review : Bioshock 1 - Objectivism Philosophy on Video Game

Oh boy... What can I say about writing this awesome game after finishing it for approximately 15 hours of having exciting and thrilling adventure in a city below the sea called Rapture. The gloomy atmosphere 60s retro vibe with stunning 3D graphic, philosophical based of Ayn Rand take on Objectivism ideas, and simple and yet challenging game play FPS mechanic involving arms with guns and body genetic modification where you can throw fire, ice, wind, and other things with your bare hands defeating various kind of deformed human. Bioshock 1 is where you can bring philosophical ideas into video games with perfect game play mechanic. And this is what I want to say for the first of paragraph of my review.


Its 1950, You are an average John who flights across the ocean where suddenly your flight got crashed and you are survivor in the middle of ocean where there is only a lighthouse that leads you into a beautiful city under the sea that is apparently all of the residents are corrupted by advanced genetic body modification and also aftermath of idealistic city built by Andrew Ryan. The man who thinks that the world don't need limitations in science advancement, art works, and also established government system. 

In other word, he is the one you will face and fight alongside mysteries that you have to unravel the glory days and the downfall of Rapture by finding some audio records left with help from survivor called Atlas where you communicate using radio wave to find your escape from savage modified human like residents turned into addicts for your ADAM, your genetic substance where there are two iconic ADAM Hunter like Big Daddies and Little Sister that you can fight for your own benefit by using weapons to find or using PLASMIDS that simply makes you powerful to control any substance like fire burst, electro charge, and many more to make you stronger after beating Big Daddies and later you have to choose whether to kill little sister by harvesting her ADAM, or save her where those choices it will affects your ending and also your moral compass.


Bioshock 1 is first-person shooters where basically you can play using keyboards with mouse and also game-pad. It has smooth movement for character movement and easy to use weapon and ability function that has less rpg mechanic and depend of looting system where you can get some money, first aid, some proper ammo to battle specific enemies by killing enemies or find those hidden on various object you can find alongside the location where you can rely on the arrow cursor to guide you. It seems easy to play, but in some encounter you have to consider and make strategy to prepare enemy attacks because every bullets counts and using your special ability what makes this game more fun, such throwing stuffs, make flammable floor or doing hack for machine that against you such as CCTV and turret guns.


The game came in 2008 and it revolutionised and introduced the new graphic of what Unreal Engine is capable of. Even though Bioshock 1 has limited area to explore, the vibe of being under the sea with astonishing landscape of Rapture city through the window makes this games has its own identity where beautifully background location setting with thrilling sense of claustrophobia. Some objects through the location such paintings, ads, and radio can be the hint and to reveal the plot line in case you miss and perfectly crafted to support your progress to understand what does it like being in Rapture city.

The music and sounds effect represents of vintage feel and fits with the theme properly. The voice acting that you can hear through records and radio is top-notch and makes story more believable with key characters to give you guidance and knowledge with the setting.


For a FPS fan genre, Bioshock is not average shooter that relies on the machine gun only, but it requires to use your strategy how you can use ability and makes advantage of objects such as shooting gasoline leaks with fire or electrocute water floor to make enemies more vulnerable. There are also bunch of abilities to explore to progress the game to make it easier.

Bioshock has looting elements which means you can take money and particular items from enemy you kill where later you can spend on it to buy health, eve (for using ability), bullets and explosives.
Storyline wise, Bioshock 1 has more mature theme with its own objectivism philosophy without shoving theories and the game gives you the foundation and description on how Objectivism work, if you never touch the subject before. Its like the introduction to you and the aftermath if you finish the game and like the concept. You may be interested to read Atlas Shrugged and The Fountain Head just like I do.

Now, would you kindly do the same?

Rating 9/10 would kindly recommended.